[That she's so horrified--and angry--both makes him feel a little guilty for putting this all on her, and at the same quietly vindicated that someone else thought it was that screwed up. His friends had, of course, but they'd very quickly had other problems to deal with and the whole prank had been relegated to the back of their minds.
But the moment everything had quieted down--while he's been here--it's been impossible to pretend it didn't happen, even if he's begun to wonder off and on if he's overreacting and should let it go. He wants, on some level, to let it go, but he just... Can't.
That's part of what talking about it is all about; running isn't working, so facing it is the only option he has left. But although speaking with Josh early in the month had at least gone over better than when Josh had first arrived, nothing had been resolved. And he doesn't want to bring up painful memories for Ashley.
But that Nick thinks it's fucked up, and that she cares, may seem minor but is actually incredibly important.]
Yeah. I mean, he was... It was revenge for what happened to the twins, and he um... He has some... There's a reason why I didn't just tell him he's on his own when he got here.
[There's several reasons, actually.]
But... Yeah. That all happened, and then like, less than an hour later there were wendigos and the guy who was teaching us how to fight them got his head taken off like, five feet from me, and um... It just...
[Everything went even more downhill. He'd gotten someone violently killed right in front of him, he hadn't saved Josh, Mike and Sam hadn't been able to either, and Josh has to be dead. There was no resolution at home, and here it just seems... Wrong to dwell on it too much, no matter how much what Josh did haunts him. He'll have a lifetime to be hurt, but only however long he and Josh remain in this place to be with a friend he's known over a decade.
His vision is blurring but he doesn't bother turning away; he's pretty sure Nick isn't going to judge if she notices.]
We're uh... All from different points in time from that night though; Josh is from like, before anything started to happen. I think the last thing Ashley remember is when I... You know. She'd never seen a wendigo until everything went down here. Emily's from like, most of the way through the night, and Jess made it off the mountain like I did.
S-So um... Yeah. That's why we're all kind of twitchy.
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But the moment everything had quieted down--while he's been here--it's been impossible to pretend it didn't happen, even if he's begun to wonder off and on if he's overreacting and should let it go. He wants, on some level, to let it go, but he just... Can't.
That's part of what talking about it is all about; running isn't working, so facing it is the only option he has left. But although speaking with Josh early in the month had at least gone over better than when Josh had first arrived, nothing had been resolved. And he doesn't want to bring up painful memories for Ashley.
But that Nick thinks it's fucked up, and that she cares, may seem minor but is actually incredibly important.]
Yeah. I mean, he was... It was revenge for what happened to the twins, and he um... He has some... There's a reason why I didn't just tell him he's on his own when he got here.
[There's several reasons, actually.]
But... Yeah. That all happened, and then like, less than an hour later there were wendigos and the guy who was teaching us how to fight them got his head taken off like, five feet from me, and um... It just...
[Everything went even more downhill. He'd gotten someone violently killed right in front of him, he hadn't saved Josh, Mike and Sam hadn't been able to either, and Josh has to be dead. There was no resolution at home, and here it just seems... Wrong to dwell on it too much, no matter how much what Josh did haunts him. He'll have a lifetime to be hurt, but only however long he and Josh remain in this place to be with a friend he's known over a decade.
His vision is blurring but he doesn't bother turning away; he's pretty sure Nick isn't going to judge if she notices.]
We're uh... All from different points in time from that night though; Josh is from like, before anything started to happen. I think the last thing Ashley remember is when I... You know. She'd never seen a wendigo until everything went down here. Emily's from like, most of the way through the night, and Jess made it off the mountain like I did.
S-So um... Yeah. That's why we're all kind of twitchy.