[It's harsh to hear it, but some part of him is angry at himself for not being able to say it himself. He's the one who did it, after all, and not in a split-second decision either; it had been the plan the whole time if things went badly. The least he can do is own up to it.
So it feels wrong that Nick doesn't even seem really angry at him for it, and he doesn't know what to say, because she he might've done the logical thing but that doesn't make it the right one. Nothing about any of this was right.]
I'm really glad you're not dead.
[It's not what he means to say, but it's the truth all the same. He's so glad that shooting her didn't kill her, and not just because of his own guilt. It hadn't been her fault that this had happened, it had been the gods', and she didn't deserve to have to pay for it.]
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So it feels wrong that Nick doesn't even seem really angry at him for it, and he doesn't know what to say, because she he might've done the logical thing but that doesn't make it the right one. Nothing about any of this was right.]
I'm really glad you're not dead.
[It's not what he means to say, but it's the truth all the same. He's so glad that shooting her didn't kill her, and not just because of his own guilt. It hadn't been her fault that this had happened, it had been the gods', and she didn't deserve to have to pay for it.]