[Not exactly what he means to lead with, but it's less harsh to say than jumping right to what he thinks the underlying issue is. And it's true.]
S-So I get if you're mad, at yourself or at me or at whoever, but it's... W-What happened, in the bar, it wasn't your fault. So please just... You don't have to jump to the worst outcome possible for a situation, okay?
[This is just turning into rambling and he should've waited longer to call her back, but it's difficult to stop and he just wants her to get it.]
B-But I can't just figure out what to do on my own, a-and we can't come up with something together if you're like, dead set on the worst possible thing, a-and you're pissed that I won't just agree to jump right to trying to kill you as a first option? A-Are you even thinking about what that means? People are already dead because of me, so... S-Sorry that I'm like, trying to figure out some option that doesn't involve agreeing to just kill a friend without thinking twice about it.
How is this even a conversation I'm having? N-None of this is supposed to be a thing; I was in fucking college, I don't--
[He needs to stop, but everything is just too much and he feels... Distant, almost. Like the whole conversation is surreal and he vaguely realizes he should probably hang up--he's going to either anger or worry Nick and neither of those outcomes is at all going to help the reason why he's trying to talk to her--but his fingers are shaking and it seems like a monumental task just to consider hitting the button.]
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You didn't do anything wrong.
[Not exactly what he means to lead with, but it's less harsh to say than jumping right to what he thinks the underlying issue is. And it's true.]
S-So I get if you're mad, at yourself or at me or at whoever, but it's... W-What happened, in the bar, it wasn't your fault. So please just... You don't have to jump to the worst outcome possible for a situation, okay?
[This is just turning into rambling and he should've waited longer to call her back, but it's difficult to stop and he just wants her to get it.]
B-But I can't just figure out what to do on my own, a-and we can't come up with something together if you're like, dead set on the worst possible thing, a-and you're pissed that I won't just agree to jump right to trying to kill you as a first option? A-Are you even thinking about what that means? People are already dead because of me, so... S-Sorry that I'm like, trying to figure out some option that doesn't involve agreeing to just kill a friend without thinking twice about it.
How is this even a conversation I'm having? N-None of this is supposed to be a thing; I was in fucking college, I don't--
[He needs to stop, but everything is just too much and he feels... Distant, almost. Like the whole conversation is surreal and he vaguely realizes he should probably hang up--he's going to either anger or worry Nick and neither of those outcomes is at all going to help the reason why he's trying to talk to her--but his fingers are shaking and it seems like a monumental task just to consider hitting the button.]