[In Nick's mind, it wouldn't be killing her for no reason. If anything, this episode of being controlled by Rage has shown her that she is a ticking time bomb, ready to go off any time one of those sick fucks running this town gets bored enough to pull a shit stunt like what just happened. She's not a self-sacrificing type by any stretch the definition, but she can't help calling up memories of her mother, drunk, telling her You know, Nicky, you're just not even worth the gunpowder it would take to blow you to hell.
She's never cared much about hurting people before, but that was always her own choice. She didn't choose to attack Maketh, or Chris - she was manipulated into it. She is, in effect, a loaded gun in this city's long game of Russian roulette. And that doesn't sit well with her; it makes her feel small and lost and vulnerable in ways she felt when she was very young, after her father died, ways she swore she would never feel again if she could help it.
And if Chris can't see that she's an even worse monster than he's already seen, well - she'll just have to show him, won't she.]
Fine. Forget I said anything. In fact, forget you know me. I'm sure that'll be better for everyone.
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She's never cared much about hurting people before, but that was always her own choice. She didn't choose to attack Maketh, or Chris - she was manipulated into it. She is, in effect, a loaded gun in this city's long game of Russian roulette. And that doesn't sit well with her; it makes her feel small and lost and vulnerable in ways she felt when she was very young, after her father died, ways she swore she would never feel again if she could help it.
And if Chris can't see that she's an even worse monster than he's already seen, well - she'll just have to show him, won't she.]
Fine. Forget I said anything. In fact, forget you know me. I'm sure that'll be better for everyone.
[Abruptly, she hangs up.]