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nick. ([personal profile] bekommen) wrote2016-11-06 10:54 pm
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ic inbox.

"It's Nick. You know what to do."

voice. video. text. action.
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-27 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Okay. Okay, deep breath, think.]

You didn't do anything wrong.

[Not exactly what he means to lead with, but it's less harsh to say than jumping right to what he thinks the underlying issue is. And it's true.]

S-So I get if you're mad, at yourself or at me or at whoever, but it's... W-What happened, in the bar, it wasn't your fault. So please just... You don't have to jump to the worst outcome possible for a situation, okay?

[This is just turning into rambling and he should've waited longer to call her back, but it's difficult to stop and he just wants her to get it.]

B-But I can't just figure out what to do on my own, a-and we can't come up with something together if you're like, dead set on the worst possible thing, a-and you're pissed that I won't just agree to jump right to trying to kill you as a first option? A-Are you even thinking about what that means? People are already dead because of me, so... S-Sorry that I'm like, trying to figure out some option that doesn't involve agreeing to just kill a friend without thinking twice about it.

How is this even a conversation I'm having? N-None of this is supposed to be a thing; I was in fucking college, I don't--

[He needs to stop, but everything is just too much and he feels... Distant, almost. Like the whole conversation is surreal and he vaguely realizes he should probably hang up--he's going to either anger or worry Nick and neither of those outcomes is at all going to help the reason why he's trying to talk to her--but his fingers are shaking and it seems like a monumental task just to consider hitting the button.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-27 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
[While she's quiet, putting everything together, he's taking a moment to try to calm down; it isn't really working, but outwardly he might seem calm enough except for the distant stare towards the far wall instead of at the screen. Get it together. Focus.

It's so much easier to just kind of zone out, and while he distantly feels like he should be bothered by the question that Nick asks being the one she's zeroed in on it's just... Not worth it, and his response is quiet and dimly neutral.]

Mike and I had left Josh out in the shed after what he did, before we knew about the wendigos, and we... The guy on the mountain who'd been fighting the wendigos came with me when I went back for him, but we were too late and then he got his head taken off and um... Mike and Sam tried again later to get Josh again, from the mines, and they couldn't and if I hadn't left him then he and the flamethrower guy would probably both still be alive.

[It had been his fault for being a really terrible friend; he should've known better, should've just locked Josh in a room or something or tried to talk to him or waited for everyone to calm down before making any decisions or something. But he'd screwed up, and two people died.

And that was just at home. Here he'd failed to save Josh again, and Emily too, when they were turning into wendigos, and who knows if they hurt other people? Who knows how many people who'd been transforming were killed by others here after Chris told the whole network how to take out a wendigo? And then during this last event he'd shot Nick and it's a miracle she survived, and Maketh almost died anyway, and he just keeps screwing up.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-28 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
I know you didn't.

[It's tired, his tone still dull; he can't be mad at her, really. He shouldn't be. This conversation wasn't supposed to go this way to begin with; all he's done is freak out and make her feel guilty, and that's not what he wanted to do.]

L-Look, it's okay, I just... I just want to try to keep anyone else from dying.

[Especially his friends, which includes Nick. He would take her out if he absolutely had to--like he thought he had to in order to prevent her from killing Maketh--but only as a last resort, and more importantly he wants Nick to want it to be a last resort too.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-28 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He gives a weak attempt at a laugh, but it sounds pathetic and hollow even if the sentiment behind it is genuine.]

If it's um... A-All the same to you, yeah, please.

[But more importantly--]

A-And just... T-Try to look out for yourself too.

[Her life is just as valuable as everyone else's.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-29 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[He mostly just feels drained and exhausted at the moment, the past few days having been so stressful, but he still feels a sharp jolt of surprise at her words.]

What? Why?

[Did he give the impression he doesn't care? Well, probably, when he decided to shoot her, but he'd hated having to do it.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-29 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
[He just kind of stares for a moment, trying to process the whole idea of that.]

I was... I-I was pissed at you for being a jerk. T-That doesn't mean I wouldn't care if like, s-something happened to you.
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-04-30 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
[If he weren't utterly exhausted mentally and physically he would explain exactly what the issue is--as well as be incredulous that she doesn't seem to get it--but he just doesn't care to bother right now.]

Sure. Whatever. T-The point is that being mad at you doesn't mean I like, don't care at all; I-I mean, Josh lives with me and the others.

[And if there's someone he has reason to be genuinely angry at, it's Josh.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-03 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, well, I don't think anyone or anything here is 'usual' so...

[So, for good and bad, prior experiences aren't always applicable. He's been learning that too.

He's really glad that that the whole conversation has calmed down a bit, but now he's just really tired and hoping she's okay enough that he doesn't need to worry about he being alone. He does want to ask though--]

Are you um... You okay on like, stuff at your place?

[He's not sure what he'll do about it if she doesn't since he can't really walk, but he'll figure something out.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-03 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)

[She does look better than she should for being shot, even if she doesn't look great, so he's inclined to believe her but still thinks she should probably rest. If not for physical reasons then emotional ones.

At the question he shrugs a little.]

I'm okay.

[Nick has enough to worry about without feeling guilty about him too, and ultimately he isn't that badly hurt anyway. The whole thing had been more traumatizing than anything else, but he's still seen worse, so he's hoping he'll just get over it.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-05 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, superhealing is cool no matter what it's caused by.

[For the most part anyway. At her last comments his eyes light up just a fraction with a hint of mischievousness.]

Do those sorts of things still exist? I'd go like, the fortune teller mystic route instead. Get a really crappy place in a run-down strip mall and fill it with purple scarves and really bad incense.
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-07 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
Well, back when you were a kid, maybe there really were circuses.

[It's gentle teasing, lacking any real energy but still an attempt to lighten the mood a little now that things are calmer, even if the subject is still a bit somber.]

Yeah, I think I'm done traveling. I'm kind of done traveling outside my house, actually.

[At home, anyway; he's pretty sure he'll decide to spend quite awhile at his parents' house, not even his dorm. here, of course, staying inside all the time isn't really possible even if it might be appealing.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-08 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Well if they're like, anything like on tv they seem like they'd suck anyway.

[He gives a small scoffing noise.]

You say that like I wasn't already. Geez, I make the mistake of going out in the wilderness one time and get attacked by monsters.

[It's definitely an exaggeration; he preferred staying inside on his computer or phone or whatever else rather than going out into 'nature and junk', but that was just preference. He's pretty sure if--when--he goes home, however, he's going to spend at least a solid month inside doing nothing.]
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[personal profile] thechoiceisyours 2016-05-13 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
I think it's different if it's not by choice, right?

[Like getting snowed in, or being on bedrest, or being buried alive for days.

He needs a nap.]

But um... Okay. I know you said you're fine but you should probably get some more rest, right?


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